Stay at home or Work

Well I just dont know what to do...part of me wants to have a job and bring home some money...but the other part which is 90% is like no no no you can leave Elias with strangers. I just wish that I had a family member that live close...but then again..that would probably be awful too. It is like you are screw being a mom...you are so awful if you get and job and dont stay home...but it is so sad your husband is having to support you and the baby...I mean some people think that being a stay at home mom is super easy...not really I mean yeah sometimes I do get to relax and watch tv and do whatever...but not all the time...its usually get the baby up feed him, watch him 24/7 so he does not get hurt...feed him give him juice and water all the time......change diapers, and since I am not working I do the main cleaning....and getting up with him if he wakes up..I am very bless he does sleep 12 hours at night and 2 during the day....but he plays and runs around everywhere its very tiresome...LOL....We are thinking about having another baby soon and I feel like I can not make the other child go to daycare when Elias got to be here with me....My husband feels the same way...but it does suck that we cant do the things that other couples get to do cause they both have jobs...but I feel like those moms do miss out on a lot ......a baby does something new all the time.......I guess I need to pray about it...I was thinking that maybe I could work at a daycare so Elias could get to play with other kids and I would be there working and knowing he is safe....I guess that is my goal this year.