Hello need to vent

Ok so basically my lovely husband and I got into and disagreement on the b-day party for mr. e........and to some up the whole story is I wanted to have it at the house and he wants to have it at a preschool that has b-day parties and invited people that dont want to have anything to do with me...why in the hell would I want to spend 2 hrs with them....they dont give a crap about me or e.....well anyway get to the point mr. j said its not his fault that I only have one friend and none others well I sorry but I will never regret my decision and I am sorry I have morals....I do not want to be a lemming if I spelled that right....all they are at ua are lemmings........all their wives are lemmings.......I mean I am not meaning all but if you dont at like them you are nobody. I just hate it here so much....I cant help that I have only one friend............I moved here cause I was in love....love makes you do crzy things...I was an ambassordor at snead state and on sga and was in the homecoming court.....I had tons of friends.......but in the end they were backstabbers always saying stupid mean hurtful things....thats why I only trust few people.......

Tired of this

I am tired of people thing that SAHM dont do crap. Its like we just sit on our asses and eat bon bons LOL....Mr. J mom keeps saying stuff like Oh Ashley is working so hard at her job and she never has a break...whatever she gets 7 on 7 off...come on and she talks about how all the other girls at church have time to do stuff cause they stay at home with their kids...and they get down time...I am sorry but your job is 24/7......yes if ash had a kid and working then i would be like yeah that sucks kudos to her on being a mom and career person...just had to vent...

oh I guess the point I am trying to make is dont tell me not to work for the sake of Elias but then act like I dont do anything and poor Mr. J is working so hard...he works all the time cause he has too....he always had to work overtime way before we got married and had a kid.

P90x Workout

Although it will be embarassing I will be posting pics of myself thru my weightloss journey. I will be doing day 1, day 30, day 60, and day 90 which will be my final result. So far I am on day 3 and I am hurting so bad...this workout is really extreme but I have watch youtube videos and saw some good results. But probably today I will put day 1 pics.....ahhhhh dont judge me...please LOL

V-Day on Friday

I am so glad we did out V-day on Friday...cause Mr. J had to leave Sunday to go help out in Huntsville. Jody and Kelly and J. and Me went to eat at Long Horn and then went to see a movie that was not V-day...I wanted to go see Valentines Day and noone was not interested it seeing it...so we saw Wolfman....it was ok...not romantic...Me and Kelly were upset cause we were wanting to go to the Melting pot but they were all booked up....oh well maybe this spring.....J and I got a heart shaped cookie from the great american cookie company... Mr. J got me a hot stone massage at nancy taylor...so sweet....well that is about it...did not get to see him on v-day but like I said glad we did something on friday

Stay at home or Work

Well I just dont know what to do...part of me wants to have a job and bring home some money...but the other part which is 90% is like no no no you can leave Elias with strangers. I just wish that I had a family member that live close...but then again..that would probably be awful too. It is like you are screw being a mom...you are so awful if you get and job and dont stay home...but it is so sad your husband is having to support you and the baby...I mean some people think that being a stay at home mom is super easy...not really I mean yeah sometimes I do get to relax and watch tv and do whatever...but not all the time...its usually get the baby up feed him, watch him 24/7 so he does not get hurt...feed him give him juice and water all the time......change diapers, and since I am not working I do the main cleaning....and getting up with him if he wakes up..I am very bless he does sleep 12 hours at night and 2 during the day....but he plays and runs around everywhere its very tiresome...LOL....We are thinking about having another baby soon and I feel like I can not make the other child go to daycare when Elias got to be here with me....My husband feels the same way...but it does suck that we cant do the things that other couples get to do cause they both have jobs...but I feel like those moms do miss out on a lot ......a baby does something new all the time.......I guess I need to pray about it...I was thinking that maybe I could work at a daycare so Elias could get to play with other kids and I would be there working and knowing he is safe....I guess that is my goal this year.

My Labor and Delivery Story

Hello again,

I guess I will tell yall the story of Elias birth...well it was Wed...and I was in so much pain so I decided to go to the doctor and of course nothing no dialated cervix...well I was so miserable all wed night and Mr. J had to go to work about 4 thursday morning....well I woke up after Mr. J left and started having so much pain..so I decided to take a shower..I know I was in that shower for atleast 3 hrs...I am not kidding it was the only thing that was keeping me sane...well I was wanting to call Mr J so bad but I knew he was busy and we just been to the doc like 3 times this week and I was afraid it was nothing and they would send me home.

Well it was about 1:30pm and I said I am going to call him and I did and he said he would come home and get me. So I took another shower and tried to shave everything..so hard when you have a big belly...and tried to make myself look decent...it was so hard cause every 7 min was pain pain pain....

Well Mr J is driving and I am like omg hurry this is awful...get to the doc and I am having to wait about 40 mins...I was so angry they finally get me in the room and they are like yep you are about half a centi....that was awful...only that much...

Well I am in the hospital room and I regret going so soon now...cause the pain meds were not working and i hated my nurse...she would not help me. LOL luckly my step mom Becky was there ...she is a retire labor and delivery nurse so I knew she would put up with me. LOL

Mr. J was freaking out and did not know what to do with me and my pain...it was funny he pretended that he had to go let the dogs out or something I forgot what it was...ahhhh made me mad. LOL well I was laboring at the hospital from 2pm to about 6 in the morning ...they gave me my epidural about 1 am thank God...it helped out a little ...well enough for me to sleep a couple of hours...

well at 6 my doc said time to push so Mr J held one of my legs back and the other the nurse held I push for hour and half but it does not seem like it. Mr J saw the head coming out..I still dont know how he finds me attractive after that whole thing...I felt the baby crowning cause they turn down my meds...and out pops little elias...I did not get to hold me at first cause he had low blood sugar so they had to test and hook him up to stuff that was awful scared me to death...finally after an hour we did....

The funniest part was when the nurse came in my room to clean me up was when she help me get up and all this blood and crap came out of me on the floor...and she had to drag me into the bathroom so embarrassing having to clean me down there...it look like a murder scence and she had to watch me poop...I swear we all need to realize what our mothers went thru for us...they should have mothers day for a whole week .LOL...

But I am glad that Elias is here and hopefully the next baby will not be this awful delivering......oh and I will not have the baby in the room at night so I can get some rest....well that is what I am saying now...but the next one will probably be in there with me too.



Mr J is wanting to try this spring or summer not sure though...I would rather E be potty train but I dont want to wait 2011 either...so who knows..

I Think this is just rude

Well we got invited to a cook out today and of course not really wanting to go....well I ask the person....if I needed to bring anything and you want believe what this person said...."YOU CAN BRING THE MEAT" What the crap.......of course Mr.J said no we are not..but what do you do...I thought she might say oh some drinks, or chips...not the meat for the entire party.....is that not crzy............well that is it for now..oh yeah mad cause I had to send money to my mom cause my brother keeps spending her money on crap..but that is another blog dont feel like talking about right now.

Just stuff thats been going on

Well nothing much, just glad Josh's W2 finally came in. So we will be going to get our taxes done tomorrow. So much to do to the house....We need a fence....fix up the garden beds...ahhhh so much.........I am hoping to go back to the weight loss center...that helped me so much...cause I knew I had to be good during the week cause you get weight every week so you did not want to be embarrass...lol....I have got to lose about 15 more pounds hell 25 would be great but I would be happy at 145...but any way just need to be at that weight before i get pregnant again....dont want to be 190 ever again........well actually I was 230 when I gave birth..noone believes me but its true...they weigh me before I went into the hospital I was so upset...well at least I dont weigh that now. Anyway just want to lose atleast 10 before we go to texas.

Just Frustrated!!!!

I am so mad....it seems like any new church we go to...its either crzy or the preacher is stealing money from the church..we went to Cross Way last Sunday and they were a nice church but the one thing that made me mad was the whole children church ordeal...well the nursey is in the school building and the service is in the gym...they take the children in a van and drive a couple of feet to the school...well my only problem is this they do not have car seats for the babys...it that not crzy!!!!! so no I dont think I want to go back there...another thing...one of our neighbors goes to that church and I thought church was not a place of gossip. LOL of course it is...that is why I have not been to church in awhile...had to get over my moms church..they were full of hens.....anyway get to the point..as so as I walk in...here comes my neighbor and starts tell me about one of my past friends...and I am like dude we are at church and this is how you want to represent it...I just nodded my head to him and went and sat down....so no I will not be going to that church...and no I have not said anything about what he told me...its none of my business if that person wants it to be know they will say it. But dont get me wrong it was very exciting news..he just said it in a neg way which was wrong. Well fixing to go clean....and call kelly in a bit...LOL..just pray I find a good church...

Our Country

Thankfully Senater Brown (well now thats his position) Got the senate seat...which means its going to be very hard for the democrates to pass the health care bill...thank goodness....but just scared that the (d) got something up there sleeves...everybody needs to be listening to Glen Beck...he's got some good info..well that is all for now...guess we are going shopping tomorrow and I will be cleaning the house. Yea.

So Far

Well I will get to the point in my blog, I am starting a new leaf. Basically UA people have shun me and my friend. Basically with me being shun,,I guess I do not know how to play their game.

I have basically am trying to forget about all of them and starting all over which is hard cause it seems like if I try to be friends with someone that has anything to do with that college they are all of the sudden their friend and the person that I was trying to be friends with dont want to have anything to do with me.

So now I am going to have to find new people outside of that group. I am sorry but I will always defend my friend, she got screw and so did I, I am glad of the choice I made. I feel like our friendship has grown since this incident.

That is it for now.